HELL is my home now . I feel so unloved by everybody . He is making my life worse . Friends pulled me through . Yesterday went to smoke sesha with mayyin ,laura ,melsa ,arshu ,charmain . Watched fireworks without charmain , cause she is with jiayu .100% gurantee chop Got alot alot of shapes ,and FEREO ROCHE . (okay i have no idea how to smell ) But the person i wish to watch with is still him . For this first time im like going out with them , felt super weird but it was alright . Something happened between me and him . Nobody here to console me this time ,only punching the walls helped . I hope for * to console but maybe * is ignoring me . UNLOVED -